Tuesday, October 14, 2014

Lately

Two weeks ago, I canceled a program. I've never done that before. The guilt was unbelievable, but I was quite ill and there was no one else who could do it for me.

I've been cross-posting over at the ALSC and YALSA blogs lately (here, here, here), and this month, I missed my deadline. Not just missed it, I flat didn't write the post. I just totally forgot. I was horrified at myself because it's so unlike me.

Liz and I haven't been super regular posters like some of our other amazing librarian blogger friends, but I haven't had a post since June. JUNE. That's crazy, even for me.

Life at my library has been a little...difficult lately. I haven't had a branch manager (my immediate supervisor) since July. Both of the girls that work for me (a full-time position and a part-time position) unexpectedly left at the end of the summer. I spent the entire months of August and September doing three people's jobs, and y'all? I did not handle it well. In September, I did 21 programs BY MYSELF and then my body just shut down. I've taken more sick leave in the last two months than I did in the last year, which left NO ONE in my department (and then there was more guilt). Why did I try to do all of that? Because we have programming requirements and because I didn't want to disappoint the kids and because I didn't want to look bad and because there was no one else to do it and and and...the list goes on.

This post has been one of Library Lore's most successful. Read it and then come back and tell me how terrible I am at taking my own advice. I know.

Things are getting better. I have an excellent part-time assistant now and a full-time specialist starting in November. I'm telling myself over and over every day not to feel guilty for things I can't control.

I don't have much more to say other than this: We have to stop doing this to ourselves. I have to stop doing this to myself. If you're currently doing this to yourself, STOP. There has to be another way. Let us, as a community, help you find another way.


In FAR MORE FUN NEWS, Here's a list of some happenings in Ally's world:

  • Marge Loch-Wouters came to Mississippi! I met her! I had dinner with her! She's an excellent hugger! It was awesome! AHHHH!
  • My state library association conference is this week. I'm leaving today! It's one of my favorite things we can do. I recapped it last year, and I expect to have just as much fun this year.
  • I had my annual fall open house for high school students and I had 241 teens show up! WOO! My biggest program number EVER.
  • I've deciding that interviewing people is the actual worst thing ever. I hope I don't have to do it again for quite some time.

Hopefully we'll get back to a more regular posting schedule soon. Liz and I both love being part of this community. Thanks for being so supportive of us, especially on twitter. I wouldn't have survived the last few months without y'all.

2 comments:

  1. YES. Take care of you so that you can take care of your patrons! I am actually starting to slide into burnout here with our HUGE increase in school outreach this year and my work on the Newbery Committee, BUT an end is in sight. If I can manage until February, I think I will be okay. I need to keep reminding myself to make time for myself, so thanks for the push!

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    1. Take care of you, Abby. We need you! :)

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